Soulful

2006-10-26T21:25:00.000-07:00

Oh Yeah~
School is finally out... don hav to go back to school for lessons anymore..
wooHooo~~
no more waking up early in the morning for nuts..

hahas.. yeah.. O's are coming soon and i better start studying like mad..
at least without having to go to school i can study better at home..
won feel so exhausted when i come back from school..
all the best to every1 that is in the same boat ya~

hmmm.. yeah~! its our 3months le..
whahaha..we hav brave through the storm and the rains..
but our relationship has only grown stronger..
let us cherish this relationship of ours okies?..
will be going wif weiping later on to catch a movie..
The prestige.. woot... will be visiting the brand new opened vivo city.. hahas..

okies.. gtg guys..
hope i can find some time out of my schedule to come back n blog...
lolx.. cyaz all real soon..
its the last major exam..
prepare well for it every1~!
Ciaox~

[The stars don always shine.. but it doesn't mean they have fallen ; Hope ]

2006-10-17T03:02:00.000-07:00

Oh Woohoo... Cobwebs.. hahas..
well.. its a mad rush for the O's now...
cant wait to get it over with..
somehow i m have this adrenaline rush of highness instead of getting all nervous and breaking out in cold sweat... hahas..
even though i haven even started studying yet somehow i m still not worried.. lolx
but.. cant carry out le.. gotta swtich back into my study mood..
time to get back into The ZONE>... lolx

juz finished my bio practical today.. well.. it wasnt done well..
the standard was much more higher than my school's sad to say...
hmmm thats wat made me realise that its no more chicken feet from now on..
gotta start working hard and prepare myself for whatever thats gonna be thrown..

pardon me my frens if i cant turn up to our outings or meetings...
at least for the next month..
its all back to the basics..
have to refresh my memory all the way from the sec3 subjects.. hahas..

hmmm prelim was done well i can say..
got 13points for L1R5 or 10points for my L1R4..
lolx.. cant blame.. the school's standard isn't that great..
that was the worst thing..
normally school's prelim would be at a higher standard so as to prepare us for the O's
but looking at my school's paper it juz seems like juz any other mock paper..

its so sad i gotta sacrifice 1 month of my playing time for the O's..
gonna miss my DOTA my flyFF... awww... my outings.. bladeing..
never mind... its juz for 1 month i should say...
hahas..

hmmm weiping is study hard now.. good for u dear dear.. =>
jiayou okies.. its the last exam le.. lets get it over with ya?!
and we can enjoy ourselves in thailand at the end of the year wif no worries..!! hahas..

to all those who are sharing the same fate as us..
All the best for the O's okies..
put in all your best..
this is the time for us to work hard..
its the last exam and we can so called throw all our books away..
hahas..
all the best guys work hard~

to all those who have finished their exams..
good for ya guys..
will be joining ya all in a month's time =P
Hav fun and take care all~~~

Ciaox~
[Pan s weakness eaving the body ; Staned]

2006-09-07T12:15:00.000-07:00

My princess dear dear!

2006-09-07T10:47:00.000-07:00

Sorry all haven been updating..
hahas.. kinda busy and no chance to use the comp till now..
lolx.. well i m back now.. whahaha...

hmmm... in a blink of an eye 1mnth has passed..
hahas.. our 1mnth anniversary has juz passed..
hmm.. we went out to catch a movie on that day(270706)..
watched some ghost game show.. don really know whether is the show really scary or did she scare me out of my wits.. hahas...
hmm we got our rings too... from plaza sing de couple lab..
it looks great.. its black in colour wif a sliver lining..
looks quite cool and elegant at the same time.. hahas..
well... i hope that there would still be many many more anniversary to go..
hope i will be good enough..
i don wish to be a burden to anyone..

hmmm our 1st performance is over..!!!
hahas... well it went great... from what i heard from my fellow frens n classmates..
well it was a great feeling.. being up on stage, being in the limelight..
and also hearing all the cheers from a thousand or more audience..
woot.. the feeling was well.. heavenly i should say.. hahas..
could ask for nothing more..
as long as the audience enjoyed it.. we enjoyed it.. and we had fun too.. rite guys?!
lolx..
Siq's drum stick even broke(again) lolx...
imagine how into the song he was... hahas...
but thanks to his quick thinking.. he throw the broken 1 to the side of the stage and borrowed another from Zim who was standing behind the curtains at the side of the stage... hahas..
not bad.. hahas... and so the song still went on well..
we were all still quite nervous..
hahas.. i got stunned during the my solo part when the spotlight suddenly shot at me.. lolx..
i missed a beat.. then recovered and carried on playing.. hahas..
luckily the audience didnt know whether we made a mistake or wat.. lolx..
but well.. overall it was a great performance considering that it was the 1st..
hahas... i loved it alot.. hearing all the cheers from the audience and rocking to the song.. woo~

hmmm but teacher's day wasn't all the merry n fun..
well something came up when my class presented our class power-point presentation in the hall..
we all had funny looking pictures in the slides.. but well we all juz laughed it off and took it as nothing more but a joke..
but don noe why Ms Farah(my form teacher) got so worked up over it..
she turned into merciless black faced god when she saw our presentation..
she even flared up and told my classmates "so you all are happy now that you hav embarrassed your form teacher infront of the whole school?!"
lolx.. i was like WTF u crazy person..
it is juz some pictures... we all had funny looking pictures in the slides.. why don we complain and whine..
Even other teachers(my math teacher) that had even worst pictures that would embarrass them even to a larger extent than yours... didnt even complain the slightest word and give a sign or unhappiness.. he juz laughed it off with us...
Even our math teacher could understand our thoughts and purpose.. we all juz wanted it to be fun for everyone..
wat about her.. being our form teacher.. shouldn't she even understand us better.. she said that we disappointed her..
on the other hand she was a even greater disappointment to us... her emotion and senseless ego of having that 'perfect image' had swayed her into a crazy frenzy and hav hurt many innocent ones...
if she demands a public apology from the class i can tell her that i will never agree to it.. and i m sure many of my classmates will not agree to it..
in the first place.. we hav not done anything wrong at all..
my classmates hav already wrote her letters and messages to tell her sorry even though i don think we hav done anything wrong..
but didnt know that she was so petty...
she didnt reply to the apology messages of my classmates...
well... if she wished for other classes to be her form class.. then go ahead.. anyway we don hav much time left in the school... if this is the treatment that we would recieve after we did so much and gone through so much..
it juz shows that she doesn't cherish our relationship...
well i not gonna write anymore abt this..
the more i write on it the more fucked up i become..
well if she is gonna hack care us as her form class then we shall not give a damm..
anyway we hav teachers that are more understanding than our form teacher..hahas..

well gotta go off now... will be back soon..
i hope... hahas...
lastly i wanna wish every1 good luck wif the prelims approaching..
study hard ya everybody...its our last lap in the race that we hav been running for almost 10years now... hahas... work hard and take care every1.. ciaox~

~^The beat that my heart skipped^~

2006-08-18T19:53:00.000-07:00

oh well.. the bad news wasn't so bad afterall..
we should be able to perform our ' wake me up when september ends '
but they require us to add some RETRO feel to the song..
but thats like no link..!!! wtf.. it is still back to square one..
oh well we shall see how it turns out during the auditions on monday..
hahas... jamming tml again.. yeah.. the studio at Daisy Rock rocks man..
lolx.. we went a studio at bugis on wed..
but some how the mood juz doesn't seem rite..
we couldn't coordinate well and the sound was juz so sucky.. too much feedback from the amps..

haiz.. math paper today was bloody crap..
couldn't do alot of questions..
that has shown how much my math hav deproved since my mid years..
i guess it is time to pull up my socks and get back to my studies..
well prelims will be coming up real soon..
haven even started studying any shit at all..
lolx.. seeing so many of my classmates already starting their revision makes me nervous frankly

haiz.. ping is really feeling down this few days..
she didnt do her SS paper properly today which added salt to her wounds..
i wish i could really be there for her..
but i don know how to.. i m not sure wat i can do for her..
i m juz afraid that i might say the wrong things again and make her feel frustrated and worst..
but no matter what.. i m still gonna try..

Mofo Asiq hasn't been coming to school lately..
wonder how many days hav he taken off days from school..
guess he is still kinda sick ba..
oh well take care mofo...
ur drum beat are our heartbeats... =X

emest and jun ming are doing great..
they are really fast learners..
our band would make it big one day..
no matter how long it takes..
well its great that we are starting early..
hope that gives us an advantage..

hmm gtg hav dinner le..
stomach growling liao..
been DOTAing the whole afternoon till evening hahas..
ciaox all~take care

This message is for u Ping~
i m sorry my dear..
i know i hav done u wrong..
but i will make up for my mistake..
cheer up alrite...
u look great wif ur smiles..
i m really worried about you..
i hope that i would be able to share ur burdens and problems..
but somehow i juz cant find a way to do so..
if there is anything u would wan me to do..
let me know.. i will do my best to accomplish it for the sake of you and us..
take care my love..

2006-08-14T17:08:00.000-07:00

bad news...
jus got news today that the performance for the teacher's day has got to abide to the " RETRO THEME "
holy shit..
there goes our efforts...
wake me up when september ends totally doesn't suit the theme..

we are thinking of learing the song ' do that thing you do ' by The Wonders..
but i m sure there isn't sufficent time at all..
we hav to hand up the audition form by tml and the performance is on friday?!
wth.. and once we hand up the form we cant back out..
so there is no 100% that we would be able to perform the new song in time..
but i don wan our efforts to go to waste too..
but the theme is so different..

haiz.. gtg needa settle the stuffs...
hope all goes well...

2006-08-13T13:49:00.000-07:00

The past week has been fun..
the nation is 41 year's old?!
lolx i didnt even know that to tell the truth..
hahas...

weet.. i got my new guitar...
its a Epiphone Les Paul Standard..
sounds damm cool.. almost similar to the Gibson.. and it's black in colour!!! hahas..
but i wouldn't have had enff money to buy it if it wasn't for my mum's $500
thanks lots mum for ur support.. i will make u proud.. =x

i m sure we(pHd) are goona make it big real soon..
practice hard ya guys...(jun ming, emest, asiq, me =p)
we mustn't let those that have put their faith in us down..
WE ARE GONNA MAKE IT BIG!!!! WOOOHOOOO~~~
our first performance would be on teacher's day i hope..
we hav choosen the song ' Wake me up When September Ends '
its by greenday.. and well there's kinda a special reason we chose the song..
as u see.. our prelims would be right after our september hols..
thus the song.. hahas.. if u don get the link its alrite.. LolX =X

oh well.. haven been posting cuse it was quite a busy week..
was practicing really hard for our song..
we had our first jamming session at paradiz centre on friday..
the jamming studio was really cool..
the shop is called " Dasiy Rock "
its kinda a girl kinda rock shop..
all the colours of the guitars in there are kinda made to suit girls..
with all the pink and baby blue colours..
but the studio was great..
we had ibanez guitars and bass..
and the powerfully powered MARSHALL AMPS!!
hahas.. shit.. i m using too much singlish..
and my eng oral is tml..
hahas..

we went to see the fireworks display after our jamming session on friday..
it was gorgeous..
couldn't catch which country it was by..hahas..
recieved a sudden phone call from my brother when we were planning to return home..
he invited us to go late night jamming wif his frens..
lolx.. so we had a whole day of jamming session on friday..
so fun.. hahas.. juz feels so good to juz let go of everything and play wifout a care in the world..

had some quarrels wif Ping..
i guess i really ask too much questions?..
i know how frustrating it gets..
but hmm... somehow i don noe why i would juz keep asking..
guess that answers the origin of how the phrase ' curiosity kills the cat '
i didnt want her to feel neglected like how he treated her in the past..
but i must have gone overboard instead..
guess i really must start changing ' myself '
before things really get out of hand..

yeah u are right..
i hav really lost all the confidence in myself..
and i am being very wary of the people that i put my trust in..
i hav suffered too many set backs to take it so easy..
i apologise if i hav made u feel that i don trust you..
but i m juz being a little more cautious..
i hope u will understand..

my capbabilities are limited..
i m sorry.. i cant be perfect...
all i want is for u to be happy..
even if it means for me to swallow everything and torture myself..
its alright..i m going to make it alright..
this i vow..

i m really touched for all that u hav done for me..
despite ur busy schedule you hav taken time off to care and look after me..
wo zhen de hen gan dong le..
xie xie ni..
i m really fortunate to have found you.. =D
don worry.. i will not take u for granted..
u will be cherished..
na shi wo gei ni de chen nuo..

don worry my frens..
i hav not forgotten about u guys.. how would i ever be able to do that.. hahas..
pHd we are.. and pHd we shall remain..
hahas... thanks for being there for me whenever i m down...
u guys may not know it at times..
but your company really lifts up my spirits..
i m really glad we have stuck together and are what we are today..
we hav even formed a band together! OmG~`
hahas.. can u imagine that.. how much we hav progressed from strangers to such close relationships..?
hahas.. kinda mushy but well..
hey guys.. i love ya all.. and i will really cherish everyone of ya..
hahas... whahahaha...

thats me.. in a little town called Punggol...

2006-07-31T18:47:00.000-07:00

heyS GUYS~~!!! long long long long long time no see.. lolx!!
kinda busy la..
hahas.. no time to use the comp..
oh well..
i m back now.. hahas..

hmmm.. glad that my brother is up and well already..
well sch is still as sucky as ever..
the teachers are starting to pressure us more and more as O's are getting closer..
homework are coming in bundles.. in the end.. they get stacked up in piles.. lolx..

our band has been FORMED!!!
yeah!! Cheers to emest asiq and jun ming..
lets practice hard guys!
WE ARE GONNA MAKE THIS BIG!!! =D
lolx..
hmm well.. we are juz getting started..
everyting from scratch..
beginning from buying our instruments to the basics..
hmm kinda short of 1 member..
so here are our posts :
Emest: guitarist/vocalist
Jun Ming: Bassist/vocalist
Asiq: Drumer/ vocalist
Me: guitarist/ vocalist

as u can see... we are short of a vocalist..
hahas.. who cares.. we are gonna handle it ourselves..
lolx...
Our band's name is called "Permanent Head Damages" or "pHd" in short..
hahas.. kinda interesting where we got our name from..
but thats another story..
maybe when we make it big next time people would read up on our history..
hahas.. but that is long ahead in the future..
hahas..

Asiq has gotten his gurl finally..
hahas.. Congrats man..!!
lolx.. good on you..
hmm well i m not far..
=X

the missing ring from ur 4th finger..
the one that i promised..
it will be given to u..
soon enff =P

hahas.. gtg le..
back to my guitar and books.. lolx..
will be back to update ASAP =X
in the mean time.. t.c guys.. ciaox~

2006-07-16T00:47:00.000-07:00

YEAH~!
my beloved brother has been discharged from the place of sickness...
he is back where he belongs.. HOMe...
home SWEET homeEeee...

hahas.. juz glad that he is back..
even though i won get to use the comp tat often anymore..
still.. its alrite..
as long as he is safe and sound..
i won mind doin anything..

hmm watched pirates of the carribean today wif Siq and shi jing..
lolx.. kinda bright..
really fit the bill of being a lamp post!
lolx.. hmm the show was nice..
orlando bloom and jonny deep are real cool..

the show is kinda becoming like LOTR liao..
it didnt end at Dead's man chest..
part 3 would come out soon.. or later i guess.. hahas...

my parents are getting back to the way they used to be like last time..
mayb the effect's of the course really wasn't meant to last..
or maybe i m juz destined to be treated this way..
well..
at least there is still some comfort that i can seek..

[ Its obiviously, i'm wasting my time ]

2006-07-12T10:39:00.000-07:00

crappy school.. school sux!
lolx.. so boring and tiring..
my headache nvr seems to recover fully..
it juz comes and goes and the wind..
once a nurse told me that it happens beacuse i got high blood pressure..
but how the hell can trust her..
i not even sure if she is a certified nurse..
she was juz a nurse tat happened to appear for my routine school medical checkup..
lolx.. and i juz happened to pop the Qn to her..

lalalas..
nvm..juz let it be..
didnt go to hospital to visit my bro today..
only called my dad to send my regrads..
was so damm fucking tired..
every1 seems to be feeling under to weather..
even Ms Farah is sick..
so didnt wan to ask her if i could leave sch early to attend a court case..

hmm i guess everything is nothing more but senseless thinking..
its one-sided
its wishful
and its nvr gonna happen..

hmm nvm.. i still got my frens.. hahahas..
crazy PhD holders..~
nitex all gtg..

[ If all else fails you can look up at the sky,
Because it's the same one that shines above you and I ]

2006-07-11T13:47:00.000-07:00

haiz.. my brother went for his operation this morning..
i hope that all is well..
didnt felt well in the morning thus didnt go sch..
my mum called awhile ago and said that his operation is done and he is resting now..
shuld be goin down to the hospital later..

his lung wasn't expanding back to its full size..
so the doc had to operate on him to release all the air in the membrane covering the lung and then sew it back again..
OUCH!!
luckily he will be unconscious..

hmm my headache is much better now..
but i got nothing to do..
don feel like studying yet..
afraid my headache would return..
lolx..
guess i will go watch tv or play some games..
blog again nxt time..
t.c all.. don wish to visit anyone in the hospital..

[Awaiting the 2nd August Sun]

2006-07-09T01:15:00.000-07:00

Went to Fish N Co for lunch today..
first time eating there.. lolx..
thx to my cuz Alicer.. it was her treat..
the ambience was nice.. the food.. not too bad too..
not a bad place to slack and hang out at..
hahas..

went to SGH after that wif all my cousins to visit my bro..
glad to see that he was alright..
even though i could see that it was hurting..
but still he would recover in a few days..
so its all well..

hmm had an unexpected phone call in the hospital..
it was from a fren's fren..
she told me that my fren would be out of the hostel soon..
tat was so great.. hadn't seen her for a very long time..
hope that she is still doin okies..
my primary sch fren..

t.c all~

^i don wanna-but i gotta^

2006-07-08T03:13:00.000-07:00

my Brother is in SGH!!!
WTF..
and i went for a BBQ..
wat a fucking bastard i m..
shuld i hav known earlier i would hav gone to the hospital instead..

the BBQ didnt turn out as planned..
everyting didnt go well..
except for the fire starting part..
neighbours complained..
police came..
lucky Wei Sheng got to celebrate his birthday wif 2 policemen..
lolx wtf.. or shuld i say unlucky..

the shocking news came when i was done shopping for the bbq stuff..
suddenly my mum called..
and said my Brother was admitted to hospital..
he was having pain in his chest..
the doc said that his chest was inflammed..
so they had to slid it open to insert a tube to let the air out..
wtf... i m unsure if he was unconscious when they operated on him..
if i could i would share his pain.. but i couldn't..
the least i could do was visit him..
but wtf did i do..
i went to the BBQ..

the person that i hav always looked up to..
the person that i hav always respected..
the person that was so dear to me..
he laid in bed.. ill.. unwell..
and me.. i didnt even show my concern..
i know it must be lonely in there..
and i didn't even do anything that i could about it..

fucked up..
damm pissed of at myself..
why in the world did i go for the BBq in the 1st place..
it wasn't even what a BBq shuld be like..
haiz..
NTH CAN MAKE UP FOR LOST TIME
i really regret my decision..
wat if.. *touch wood* that was the last time i could see him..
how will i ever live the rest of my life by making that stupid decision..
the guilt.. the pain of losing some1 so dear to me..
i m a fucking bastard...

haiz.. i confessed..
wat m i suppose to do now..
i guess there is nth..
i don expect anything back..
unconditional..

i m goin to SGH tml no matter wat..
hold on my Brother.. it will be over real soon..

^the damsel in distress-the knigt in shinning amour^

2006-07-07T00:50:00.000-07:00

another week of sch has gone by..
the finals of the world cup is approaching..
the past has to be let go..
before the future can be embraced...

getting really sick and tired of sch now..
in the past.. it was a place that i go so that i could meet all my frens and hang out..
however, all has changed..
now its a place that i dread and hate to go..
it's a cold prison where everyting seems so.. so dead..
i wanna slack.. i wanna play.. i wanna get over my studies!!

O's seems so boring to me..
the ppl i look at arund me seem to be very anxious and worried abt it..
to me.. it's nth but a boring piece of paper..
one that i rather get it over with..
takin up too much precious time of mine..

hmm.. celebrating Wei Sheng's b.dae today.. gonna hav a BBQ at my roof garden..!!!
lolx.. isn't that cool..
hahas.. hope everyting turns out well..sorta a last min plan..
but.. well.. quite disappointed that he didnt come for emest's n mine celebration as planned..
i m sure he does hav his reasons.. O'well guess he had his reasons..

teachers hav been hurrying us to get the plan for our prom night done...
wonder why are we the one doin it when we should be furiously studying.. Lolx.
at least they could hav told us earlier and we could hav started during our june break..
but WTF.. some ppl are jus aren't as organised as well.. and they expect US to cover up their ASSes..ahhh... WTF nvr.. i will bear wif it.. for juz a few more months =p~ goin out to gget stuff for the BBQ~

something is wrong.. i hope emest is alright..

^. . .she will be loved. . .^

2006-06-26T23:40:00.000-07:00

guess i can nvr hav a happy family relationship
i don belong..
i m far away..
nothing stops me..
i m always gone..
nvr there..
live on..
the wondering thought..
i nvr left out..

dwell?..
nvr.. i don stay stuck at unhappiness hahas..
no need to worry abt me guys.. (for all those tat hav showed their concern thx LOTS)

i hav gotten on wif life..
being wif frens..
ppl that i really consider them as frens 4 life..
ppl that i enjoy being arund..
ppl that hav chosen to understand me n accept me..
ppl that wuld correct me when i am wrong n agree when i am rite..
tat is everyting..

unhappiness aside..
enjoyment enters..
all that i am..
i am..
cuse tat is who i am..

ImpZ from hell~
get IT!!!

don?
get OUT!!

2006-06-25T22:34:00.000-07:00

SCH IS REOPENING TML!!~~~

thats crappy.. haven enjoyed enff yet..
don feel like studying..
tons of homework untouched..
yet i m here bloggin..
lolx..

cut my hair today.. so sad..
it hasn't even grown long yet but i had to cut it..
nvm.. wait till secondary life is over.. wahahahas~
hais.. study study study n more studies..
guess that is the job of a student..
more work to be done and more tests to study for...

why cant we take O's now.. i rather end it now..
draggin will only cause me to study for a longer period of time..
then will leave me less time to enjoy..
some crap..
no more time for slacking le.. time to stwich modes..
back to the rap sheet i shall go..
T.T

MyyyYYy HandsSsss~

2006-06-25T00:57:00.000-07:00

heys ppl.. juz gt the chance to use the comp.. hahas.. been busy at work..
lolx.. but heng two days nia.. if not i also buay tong sia..
but well.. i m awaiting pay day.. whahas!!
i m gonna spent almost like half on it on a really cool FRESHIMP jacket..
hahas.. first time i really realised how hard money is to earn..

kinda feel guilty for spending money like water..
money that doesn't belong to me but my loving parents..
some sad..
hais.. but i will be more thrifty from now..
i can understand wat they have been goin through for more than half of their lives already..
thx MUM N DAD for supporting me n giving in to my requests..

work was fun during the first day.. we were supposed to collect and pack stuff from the exihibition at the expo when it was over...
so we got to slack n still get paid.. hahas..
they asked us to report at 8.30am but in the end started working at around 6pm..?
hahas.. $45 for juz slacking tat's wat i call a great job.. lolx
hahas.. but today was damm tough.. had to shift and pack alot of things..
my legs are aching my hands are hurting..
tough labour is wat i can say..
hope my parents don hav to work that hard juz to follow up to my living standards..

somehow.. i feel pitiful..
why are people wif tattoos looked at a different way...
its juz a form of art..
like modeling..
ur body is the canvas..
whatever's on it is your materpiece..
when do they hav to hide it when it is a work of art..
i feel sad for these people in the current society..
they thinking is so dead..
they cant accpet anything is isnt the same as them.
they isolate the unknow and forbid them for entering..
instead of welcoming it and knowing that wat really matters is on the inside..

sch holidays gonna be over...
not enough play time..
so sad..
hahas.. tons of homework not done..
cant switch to study mode..
why cant we juz take O's now and get over n done wif it..
if i could i would..
wasting so much of my lifespan..
let me enjoy my life..
i m sick of havin to do things juz becos i hav to..
it sucks.. really sucks..

gonna miss the times when jm,asiq n emest would come over to my huse n we would play games till late at nite..
hahas.. times hav always been enjoyable wif u guys..
Silent Hill was great.. lolx..watched it wif them.. u guys noe me.. whahaas..
blood is ecstacy to me.. lolx.. cool movie if u like gross scenes [i do =x]
i wanna catch FROSTBITE!! so cool the thriller.. lolx and DEAD's MAN CHEST..
pity there isn't enough time..
but hell that.. i m still gonna find someway to catch them.. wahhahahs..

hmm i m back to the same old me again.. single but not alone..
my frens are always there for me.. that i know..
1 thing i hav discover.. frens will be the ones that will always be wif u throughout life..
i hav learn my mistake.. nvr rush into a relationship..
even when it feels rite..
it doesn't hurt to think tiwce and consider ur choice..
THANKS GUYS for being there for me ALL OF YOU..
u will nvr be forgotten..

memories may last,
but they gotta be refreshed occasionally to be kept as one.
pain may last,
but they gotta be forgotten to heal.
time may heal,
but it's duration is nvr fixed.
moving on is all,
but it doesn't work without forgetting.
forgetting may hurt,
but that's my choice. . .

| M BACK FINALLLLLYYYY~~

2006-06-15T08:17:00.000-07:00

hi.. many hav been complaing of my blog ageing.. lolx..
well.. couldn't load the blogger homepage until now..
hahas.. stupid damm comp must hav something against me..
wth...

oh well, many 'thrilling events' hav happened in the past few days..
Clarence is off on his way to China..
so envious.. he gets to travel so often..
well i, don get these fortunes...
hmm.. i feel so much better now.. i m back wif my frens..
true great frens that i truly cant do wifout..
the times i hav missed.. i deeply regret..
sorry guys!!! well i m glad that u all haven left me out..=)
hanging out wif u guys hav always been nth but happy times n relaxsation.. lolx!
my pool deproved so much.. OMg! lolx...
hmm oh well juz happy tat i hav found u guys in this little place called PUNGGOL 21.. hahas
otherwise i wuldn't noe how to spend my life here...
THANKS GuyS..

oh well.. we had our 1mnth anniversary 2 weeks ago..
well i thought all was well.. or at least i hoped..kinda started some frequent quarrels..
but i nvr expected things to turn out the way it happened..
we planned to go roller bladeing wif some of her frens at east coast 1 day..
but ended up only left the 2 of us..
so well at the start of the day it was all fine until i met her..

well.. she had set her hp wallpaper as her pic wif her ex..
and i 'discovered' that she had their neocard DISPLAYED in her wallet too..
wat a sight that wasss...
HA HA HA!
the thought that came to my mind was..
WTF.. does she think i m blind..
or she simply doesn't care n minded..
oh well the latter was rite..
she doesn't seem to think that it is wrong to love two person at the same time..
WAT KINDA THINKING IS TAT..
all this while.. i was kept in the dark..
why the fuck did she tell me she was ready in the 1st time..
i asked her b4.. whether she was ready.. whether she needed time to get over him..
she said 'NO'.. oh well.. i guess my trust was placed in the wrong hands..

Why.. why.. why..
up till now then i get enlighted..
how can she possibly 4get him so fast..
i shuld hav realised that when i noticed that she still kept HIS pictures in her handphone..
i thought she wanted to juz keep them as memories..
i guess i was wrong..
totally wrong..
tats rite...
she STILL LOVES HIM!!!
WAT THE FUCK IS WRONG!!!!
how can any1's heart be big enff to hold 2 people..
she still thinks that it is not wrong..
her kinda attitude.. the one that i don like..
she says tat i m not there for her whenever she needed some1..
oh.. I SEE...
but i hav no idea or wat at all wats goin on wif her..
everytime she has her problems.. she goes to her frens..
WAT M I SUPPOSED TO DO THEN..
bloody hell..
I M NO GOD.. I M NO FORTUNE TELLER.. I CANT DO TELEKENESIS.. I CANT READ MINDS!!!
how to fuck m i supposed to know tat something is wrong..

tat's the thing i m so pissed of wif..
she thinking that it is not wrong.. and her kinda attitude..
she is saying me as tat kinda person..
oh well.. maybe i m to her..
WHO CARES!
i don feel that..
say until like i force her to come n pacify me and hong me..
crap la..
bloody hell.. i mean it.. bloody hell..
when u make some1 unhappy it is only natural and responsible that u pacify the person so that u guys would get better rite..

so wat if i m not treating u as my GF..
ask urself.. do u deserve to..
u think a promise n a apology and being apologetic can make up for everything..?
then u are dead wrong man..
i m not jesus christ..
i cant forgive every sin so easily..
even HE had to be crucified..

the things tat i can do and willing do for u so easily..
i don see u doing any of them for me at all..
are U all that is on ur mind.. all u care abt is urself?..
u say wat it is not ur character that u spare a thought for ppl feelings..
then i can say that it is another lie..
juz another plain old lie..

how do u expect me to giv u time to get him outta YOUR MIND...
u shuld hav already done that b4 getting 2gether wif me..
it is juz a basic thing to do.. when u r not ready don say u r..
it juz doesn't work tat way.. ended up everyting has gone wrong instead..
i juz feel tat al that u are saying now makes ABSOLUTLY NO SENSE!!
u cant control ur heart..? wtf is tat.. if u cant who can..
don crap wif me..

u expect me to wait n carry on being hurt in the process while u try to forget him..
one word "IRRESPONSIBLE"

maybe u hav shown ur true colours.. finally..
and well i cant accept it..
considering a breakup.. yes i shuld..
but still i m holding on..
cuse i think tat it is a pity..
ya.. juz pitiful.. our relationship hav gone haywire.

since u are so happy wif ur FRENS already why do u need me for..
BACKUP PLAN? PLAN B when PLAN A doesn't work out..
wtf.. don take me for granted man..
if u wanna mess up my life..
don even think abt it..
GET OUT.. EVEN BETTER..

well.. enff of that crap..
lolx..
thanks to all those who hav given me ur advices and opinions..
thanks for being there to listen to all my crap.. i noe u guys don hav to.. but still u guys did.. and i m really grateful for that..
LOVE U GUYS.. =xxX

hmm..finally got my new blades..WOOT~
love em.. THANKS MUM.. well she pay for it and didnt even complain abt anything..
it cost around 340.. and she juz asked if i liked it.. if i did i could get it..
wee~ love u mum!!
lolx.. maybe adam khoo's course really did some wonders..hahas..
yup.. it is red n black in colour.. my fav colour combination..
lolx.. and some 84mm wheels.. the shop aunt said that it was the latest and biggest..
hahas.. the shop aunt was very friendly n kind too..
hard to find this kind of ppl nowsaday..
she recommended that pair of blades acctually..and juz nice it was in black n red..

oh well..juz love hanging out wif my frens now..
don hav to care abt anything else expect where to go n PLAY..
whahaha...

hmm goin to elaine's BBQ tml..haven buy b.dae pressie yet...lolx..
everytime last minute de..
yup..shuld be goin into the RED HUSE at pasir ris again..
lolx.. SO suay or lucky u can say that our group no1 really can SPOT ghosts..
lolx!!

kks.. gonna wc3 le..
hope the comp be guai n let me load the blogger homepage again nxt time..
till then~

WeeeHeeeeEEE~~ MT OVER

2006-05-26T02:40:00.000-07:00

whahahaha today was the last day of our intensive MT LESSONSS!!!
lols so happy man..
don hav to endure that 4 long hours of MT stuffs... hahas..
but O's for MT coming soon also.. kinda worried..
but don feel like studying for it.. cuse i noe its a NO HOPE subject for me..
whahahas.. i juz don like it..
like since primary sch...
too complicate...
all the characters so hard to read 1.. so many strokes juz to write 1 word..
LIKE WTH MAN!~~
lolx i don wanna put my hopes into it..
can pass i very happy liao..
hahas =Xx

hmm finally gonna hav june holiday break le..
but wth man..
saw the holiday plan from my very good sch..
like wat almost 3 weeks of june is taken up by xtra lessons.. OMG!
sianx... got so many things i wanna do..
i haven taken a break yet!!!
yawns.. studies studies and more studies...
when can i stop my studying life...
well but its all good..
cuse i noe i m doin it for my future..
yup..
i shall work hard now.. and enjoy the other half of my life nxt time..
lolx... like tat chinese saying goes "xian ku hou tian"
i certainly hope it turns out tat way.. hahas...

hmm tml is vien's birthday yet.. lolx
goin out later to meet don to buy "stuff"
lolx... hahas... she having her celebration at changi there de chalet..
yeah.. tml goin to PARTY!!!
finally... a well deserve break for me...
LOLX or at least i think i deserve it..
don care wat others say.. lolx..
muhahahaha~~!!! sorta crazy bring badminton rackets there to play..
lolx.. but well...
WHO CARES!!! LETS HAV FUN!!!!

hmm going out soon to meet ah don le..
hope tml would be fun and everyting turns out rite..
vien like so relax 1.. lolx even though she sort of like didnt even plan anything..
LOLX!!! hahas...

ciaox PeePS~!

Blah blah blAh. . . La lA |a. . .

2006-05-23T21:31:00.000-07:00

Heys peeps~
think i got back all my mid year results le..
qutie happy wif my chem math n bio results..
they rest are well sort of expected... except eng..
did badly this time.. crappy...
Mt results was well expected.. lolx.. don put my hope into that.. lalalas..

hmm.. dear got so good results le but still her dad not happy wif her...
so she got grounded.. crap.. only like can meet her for lunch or dinner now...
cant really go out and play le..
nvm.. we will wait till our O's over ba.. i will be thinking of U...
guess ppl hav different expectations..
like my parents for e.g
i told them i got an A1 for my bio..
they go "oh okies" tats all
but for her.. when she tells her dad she gets an A1..
her dad will say "u are statisfied wif that?"
yeah.. her dad wans her to get 90+ to be statisfy n not juz A1's..
hmm but i noe she can do it de.. if she focus..
but yeah.. she will become a total nerd when she does tat..
guess tat's tat ba..
she studies much better alone and would be able to concentrate more..
like she said when she studies wif others it is to help them wif their studies..
its the truth n i hav to admit to it...

hmm i hope i did well for my mid years..
i wanna 'use' my results to ask my parents to get me a pair of roller blades..
been ages since i've done tat..
kinda missed the wind in my hair feeling...
wif no worries or watever.. juz enjoyment
n i needa fix my bike too.. lolx.. wanna go cycling..
so long since i hav done all these stuffs..
brings back so much memories..
needa teach dear how to cycle too..
planned to go to east coast for BBQ and blade as well
wonder if she still can make it..

My school doesn't giv any study breaks sia..
so crap! and got intensive chinese lessons.. WTH
like everyday go to sch half the day is taken up by chinese stuff..
oMg i would die 1 day if this carries on..
luckily its only till friday.. cuse nxt monday O's for MT le..
wahahah heng sia..

hmm goin out for lunch now.. maybe back later to blog again..
t.c all of u.. mug hard play hard too!!!

P.s darling pls take care too okies... don keep study ya... must look after ur health too.. Lurb u~

Cherished moMentS

2006-05-14T17:41:00.000-07:00

hmm comp kinda broke down so haven been updating recently..
yeah.. crap.. something was wrong wif the windows.. lolx..
hmm gonna finish my mid year's soon le.. left chemistry..
having paper 1 later n paper 2 the next day.. yeah.. must score A1 for this subject..
hmm dear is having her Amath paper 1 now.. she should be doin fine ba..
seeing how much she studied for it... even though she said she haven finish studying it yet..
but yeah somehow things always turn out well for her.. cong ming de dear dear.. Muackis~
jia you worx..

hmm this year's birthday was a very memorable one...
it was always massive studying on my birthday..
cant help it la.. always on mid year.. hahas..
yeah but this year 2 special ppl made it magical for me..
one of them is my darling laopo and the other is my pal don..
yeah.. i think they searched almost every nook and cranny at tampines mall and some other place for presents to buy for me.. yeah...
very touched.. they even prepared a special birthday supper for me..
however.. yeah tings didnt go quite well...

i didnt get to see them for the whole day.. so kinda felt left out...
so was a little unhappy about that.. so it kinda messed up their surprise plan..
SORRY GUYS!!!!
but i still enjoyed that night alot.. yeah..
n the presents were really nice.. i got a nice cute doll doll whiched paired up wif hers..
a diesel watch, and some cute sort of key chain.. lolx..
n we slept quite late tat nite.. so were all very tired during the morning's papers.. hahas..
SS was alright for me except some of the source based questions..
Emath was alright too.. think i made some careless mistakes already.. hahas..
yeah but past le.. no point thinking.. lalas.. gonna do well for my chem.. i don care..!!!
whahaha~

some chi bao mei shi zuo ppl went to dear's blog and soiled her tag board.. WTH!!
crappy ppl.. dont understand how come they are so childish...
maybe they juz gt nothing else better to do ba..
they juz cant help but get jealous when they see happy couples together n start cursing them cuse their's ain't alright..
but yeah... they shuld look themself in the mirror and examine themself to see wat's wrong..
hmm but i think the mirror would shatter.. lolx
but WHO CARES!!! they would get some YEARS OF BAD LUCK!!!!
WHAHAHAHA.. let Adam Khoo Says : "GOOD LET THEM DIE!!~~~!!!!~~~"
LOLx.. i m damm bad.. but i like it.. whahaha..

YEAH finally turned 16.. whahaha NC16 movies here i come!!@@!@!@!@!@!@!
lolx.. me dear n don went to video easy at plaza to rent some disc..
but we forgot the exams was still on.. so yeah couldn't finish watching them in time..
gotta return them later on le.. lolx..
hahas.. kays gtg study some more abit.. lolx!! broken english.. lalalas~
sobbix my devil may cry!!@@@ cant play it now.. hahas its a nice game.. borrowed from jing lie..
some fun..!@@ ='(

ciaox all~!!
jia you for all those who haven finished their exams!

Cont|nuEd~

2006-05-07T22:55:00.000-07:00

hahas hey guys back le...
now taking a break for the long time muggin..
lolx tml is bio P1 n geo le..
some stressful subjects... my CPU not working anymore...
all the memory used up le.. nth seems to be goin in..
lolx.. so ya.. destress by bloggin.. hahas
hmmm went to for an early birthday celebration on the 5th wif my gang..
yeah.. went to marina bay for some steamboat dinner..
kinda becoming a habit that we go there for most of the celebrations.. lolx..
yeah then after tat we had a crazy idea to go to the riverside near the esplande area to cut the cake...
oh ya.. thx for the present Jun Ming and Asiq.. thx to Wee Long n Ah Quan for buying the cake too.. and thx to everyone that went for the celebration..

then Helmi wasn't feeling well so we wanted to get a cab home.. but bloody hell it was so damm difficult to get a cab at that time..
so ended up walking all the way to penisular there to take bus 80 back to CP then walk home..
but i didn't folo them.. i went to find my dear.. missed her too much le..
yeah.. the whole day she wasn't wif me ma.. hahas..
oh ya.. i was thinking of alighting at CP wif them then walk to hougang green there..
but didnt realise the bus went pass hougang mall.. then my frens were like
'hey why u nvr get down.. thought u goin hougang?'
then i was like 'oh ya hor.. wat m i thinking..'
hahas... yeah then met her until two plus n went home..
back to my cosy bed for my slumber...
lolx yeah..

oh n today is my bro's birthday...
hahas.. HAPPY BIRHTDAY BRO!!~~~
thanks for always looking out for me..
hope u like the gift i bought u..
lalas.. yeah.. gonna go back to my books now le..
maybe will come back later..
hahas.. cyaz guys...
mug hard..~~!!

TreaSures

2006-05-05T03:12:00.000-07:00

heys peepS~
hahas.. hmm juz finished eng n mt papers..
shuld be alright.. MT wasn't as difficult as i expected it to be.. lolX!!!
yeah.. hahas.. hmm going out soon to go celebrate our(emest n mine) be-early birthday.. hahas
hmm juz now went to cp wif dear don ah ma n 'lao niu' lolx.. tat's wat ah ma call him la..
yeah.. and the whole of cp was packed.. for the first time since its opening i think..
lolx!! yeah.. and ended up eating sarkura wif them..
my first time eating there actually.. the food was alright.. i had beef fried rice..
yup.. then went to get birthday gifts for my elder bro n emest bro.. lolx consectutive birthdays..
on the 6th is emest de then on the 7th is my bro's one.. lolx..
yeah so kinda rushed the gifts part.. hahas..

hmm then after then i sent dear home for the 1st time.. the place quite quiet there...
yup.. hmm the went home after tat.. n don messaged me sayin the he got pang sai..
so sad.. his love rival 'snatched' away "the orange cat" lolx...
hmm yeah.. wanna wish him all the best..
ah don don delay le..!!! later u regret hor!!! hahas.. don be afraid to make the 1st move i shall say.. =p

hmmm gtg le.. emest n asiq here le.. 2 be continued.......

Zhu ni sheng ri kuai le qin ai de~

2006-05-03T06:45:00.000-07:00

Heys All~
Done up my bloggie once again.. lolx.. with help of cos..=Xx
hmm tml mid years le..
so sianx..
hahas.. but i rather get it over wif faster ba...
lalas then can play all the way le..
Come forth O level's!@!@!@!@!@!@
Whahahas

Hmm labour day was a very special and fun day for me.. =P
t was her birthday of cos.. hahas..
Ryn, Don, Huiqi, Xinyi and me went to marina square to sing kbox..
hahas but had to wait..
So we ended up shoppin again.. lolx!
My mum would kill me if she found out that i bought a shirt again..
t was a long sleeve yellow/orange/dark pink striped shirt.. ahahahs
I thought it looked kinda formal but they said it was alright so i bought it.. lolx

hmm it was my 1st day together wif her...
news spread like hotcakes.. lolx
hmm yup.. soon many knew.. but oh well..
t's perfectly fine wif me.. whahahas =)
hmm was supposed to go to cosy bay to have dinner de..
but she had some last minute appointment wif her family..
cuse her uncle had to fly somewhere on Mother's day..
so they eat their 'family dinner' on her birthday n celebrated her birthday as well..
So sad.. forgot to buy cake..!!!! lolx.. ops!!
maybe will treat her to cake some other time ba... lalals~

hmmm write till here 1st le..
exams yao lai le..
Da jia dou yao jia you worx~!!!
All the best~ for tml's eng paper..
Ciaox~~